Michelle and I were looking at our calendar the other day and commenting on how full it is. As I sit here to write this I am so overwhelmed with God's trust in us. I am not sure how to even communicate what I am feeling. I have started this blog over several times trying to find the right words, but the only words I can think of is "Thank you!" When Michelle and I started our ministry together about 10 years ago the only thing we knew was that God was calling us to travel and lead worship through music. We had no idea where that would take us or just what that meant but we knew that our job was just to trust and follow. There have been times that I have tried to fit God into my box or tell Him my idea of what He wants me to do and He is always faithful to remind me that He is in control. I am so humbled that He chose us to be a part of His plan. I don't know how to describe the feelings of joy, worry, anticipation, wonder, excitement, and peace I feel when I think about what God has done for us and where He is taking us. I may be unsure of how our bills get paid each month or how it is that we are able to continue doing what we do, but knowing that I am not in control and that God is a big relief.
Lately, I have been becoming more aware of my calling. When I was starting out in my music carer I just thought how cool it was to be able to play music for a living. I knew that God had called me to be a worship leader and thought doing that would be a lot of fun, but now I am seeing how serious this business is. I have always taken my music seriously, but have never realized the impact of my calling until recently. My head is full of questions, my heart is full of anticipation and my spirit is stirring. I don't know how God continues to sustain us or why He has chosen us to be His messengers, but I am excited to see where this takes us. I am learning to live up to my calling instead of just playing music for God. Trying to wrap my brain around how God makes this work is exhausting, so I will stop trying and just continue to trust Him. All I know is that God has trusted me with this piece of His kingdom and whether we stay in San Antonio forever or continue to travel the country and the world, I want to live up to the call God has placed on my life, and the call He has given me and Michelle for our ministry.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings for today! See you soon!